[MissPout]

Thanks a lot for the nice words! It makes me feel a little bit better. I think that i have to do this because my parents gave me a lot. Your parents take care of you and someday you have to give all the love and all the things back. My parents tease me sometimes a little bit ( i know they don't mean it nasty ) with phrases like "poor daughter, you are the one who have to take care of us, i'm sure you will have fun when we are old and senile" It scares me to death. I have a "Social Phobia" and don't go out much. Only to the Drugstore, Supermarket, Doctor and stuff. I don't know why but people scare me to death and i get panic when somebody is looking at me for longer than a second. I'm the stupid little sister who don't have a boyfriend since years. I Hope i have my parents for a long long time...but take care of them alone? My Mother have a disease named fibromyalgia so she have pain all day long and with this disease came depressions, i've read hear diary one day ( i know it was wrong but she was so depressed and i had a bad feeling...), she wrote about suicide. My Dad is cardiac and diabetic. The whole situation is just scary. But i think its the easiest way for my sisters to shift the responsibility to their youngest sister. But NEVER anybody ask me what i think about it and if i'm strong enough to be in charge for my parents. It was too much for me in the last months. I had to tell this anybody. Thanks