[Jesskaa]

I'm trying, it's 7:30, and i get home at 3:30, and no phone call.

i just hate this crying.
i hate thinking, that i could have saved this.
i could have stopped this.

i didn't diserve this.
i didn't do anything.
whats so wrong with me, so him to not want me.

i hate it.
my god, i hate it.

it makes me sick to stomach.
to know i believed everything, he said.
and i cry so hard, i just feel like im not even breathing anymore. i hate it.

i just didn't do anything.
i gave him everything.
and i don't regret giving him everything.

it hurts. it hurts me.