So this month makes it four months of being single...and i still talk to my ex he confuses the hell out of me he get jealous if he thinks im hooking up with other guys or hes telling me to go out on dates are to go hook up....he tells me he wants to have
sex with me, and there was the whole i didn't hook up with that girl cause she wasn't you ordeal. Blah i dont like the thought of not talking to him because he was my best friend blehhhhhhhhhhhh i feel lame i wouldn't not go out on a date or anything lke that because of my ex but i just wish he would talk to me about what the hell is going on because i feel like i bug the shit out of him and when i say we dont have to talk anymore hes says no...one night he asked me to be open and honest with him and i told him that i missed him and he got all weird but that was awhile ago and we still talk and sometmes take trips down memory lane on webcams if you know what i meannnn. I honestly believe that my feelings for him will never go away and im also going to be moving to the same area as him for school and that always makes my mind wonder and think what if?