I'm going to give you my honest thoughts on this so I hope you won't be offended but he is playing you like a violin. It sounds like the old "I don't want you but I don't want anyone else to have you either" BS. My first husband was a master manipulator with my emotions. He may have been your best friend at one time but he is no friend to you now. Is that how you would treat a friend? Keeping them confused and unsure of themselves. He is not doing this to you though. You are doing it to you. As unfair as that sounds, he only does what you allow him to get away with. Cut him loose. Anyone who truly loved you would not keep you torn up all the time. I know how hard it is. I speak from experience and it took me 10 years to finally say enough. It won't change either. He tells you that he can't have
sex with someone else because she isn't you? Games, honey. He is going to tell you what he thinks you want to hear. As harsh as this sounds, I am telling you the truth and if you let these behaviors continue to control your emotions, you are setting yourself up for what could be years of heartbreak. Take it from someone who has been through it all and came out of the other side. You can stay away and you can get through this. Believe me when I tell you that your feelings for him WILL go away at some point. I worshiped my ex-husband. As bad as he was to me, I loved him with all of my heart. I would have died for him. Now, he is just a bad memory. I wish you the best of luck and I know that if you decide to change this, it will get better but it's up to you.
