[SimplyElegant]

I know you think it's not an option, but it really is. Can you stay at a close friend's house for awhile until yuo find somewhere or maybe someone in your family? No one should have to put up with any type of abuse. If you stay it'll probably escalate even more because by staying you're putting up with it and basically saying that it's ok because you're too afraid to leave. This is all of his problem and not your fault and you shouldn't have to be afraid of your SO. I've been in a similar situation but not as hard as what you're dealing with. A life without him would really be better for you.