[blueangel1023]

I totally understand where you're coming from and I feel your pain. I was diagnosed with PCOS a few yrs back. I always wondered why every single time I lose 15-20lbs, I eventually gain it back. No matter how many times I lose the weight, it always comes back to haunt me...Arrghhh! So I pretty much gave up. Thank goodness I'm 5'7 so my height gives me leverage...lol. The doc says I'm not obese in any way, just borderline overweight from my average weight range. I don't have high cholesterol or high blood pressure. I might have a chance of being diabetic though. My hair started thinning when I was perhaps 16? It's been awhile I tend to lose track, but I don't let that get the best of me. I maintain a normal lifestyle and most of the time ppl don't even know there's something wrong with me til I actually tell them I have PCOS. I do have irregular periods and sometimes Aunt flow is missing for up to 3 months. BC is the only way I can regulate it. Luckily I don't have excessive hair growing in weird places or have acne/oily skin (except for my scalp) I have to wash my hair every single day or else you could probably fry chicken with the grease in my hair...lol. The only thing that's worries me is not being able to conceive and have kids in the future.

When I was in HS I did have low self esteem and I often did get depressed. Since I got into cosmetics and developed new hobbies, I found life isn't so bad after all. I'm not letting some disease get the best of me. It's ok to rant and you're entitled to it. Just letting you know you're not the only one out there. Be strong!