Well, i weighed myself yesterday, and turns out im down to 60 kgs, [primary goal], i had the shittiest day of my life yesterday, but im ok now, not great, but handling it.
I look at that pic on the left and i think 'my mom and brother are just crazy' i was talking to my brother on msn yesterday and he goes " You're way too skinny/bony in that picture sis, mom and i think you are way too skinny now" and im like

skinny? puhlease

I dunno why but i still see myself as FAT, i can't get it out of my head, i will always be fat, after you were 200+ pounds before you never see yourself as skinny anymore, i sometimes feel like a whale, deep down i know i am not, but i still do....reason why i workout too much. And i just can't stop until i get to where i want to be, i am obsessive when it comes to my appearance, i have HAVE to be/look perfect, if i don't then im not good enough for anything. Sometimes i think its so stupid, but its something that traumatized me when i was on the heavier side, and it just wont go away, it never will..
I am on one hand happy that i finally got there, now only 2 kgs away from my secondary goal, 5 pounds or less...sounds like too much when you convert it to pounds, boo to the pounds, anyways..so yeah.
All i ever do is blog about this huh? i wanna slap myself sometimes for being obsessive about it..bah.