At first I decided like the Solange song..That he was the one for me. Now that we are broken up. I decided that I am going to blog and vblog on youtube (maybe if I get bold enough) what I am going through. Kinda like a breakup diary.
I have been in a series of shitty relationships that I come out of exhaused. This one in particular because I really put myself out there. I went into the relationship with the mindset that he was the ONE and I really felt that he could be. Seems that he had other plans.
Damn I am so torn and alone. I am usually the "bouncebackqueen". I normally keep them on deck. This time I failed to do that. I ended even phone conversations with other people just to show him that I was serious about him because he was insecure about me.
Now I look at my dumbass like WTF were you thinking???
I decided to give myself a makeover and get back into the gym hot and heavy. maybe something good will come of this. Maybe in the end I will soar above the foolishness that I am thinking right now. The thoughts are not good ones...not good at all
