Nuri is right, we need to start blogging more. So lets see, what´s going on in my life right now?

1.) I bought the sexiest dark blue strapless summer dress. It hugs my body like a glove! I plan to wear it when I´m out celebrating my upcoming 24th b-day.

2.) I just won my first e-bay auction, and my new Guess handbag will be shipped to me shortly. Can´t wait!!!

3.) I have my only exam of the year coming up, and it´s the day of my b-day (June 27th). Which is actually awesome cause the past 4years of med school the exam was always after my b-day, so I could never celebrate it.
I just lack motivation to study, it´s never been this bad! All of my friends have the same problem, but that won´t help me if I end up failing the exam (or parts of it). Med school has just been sooo draining for me, I have cried so many tears because of frustration and exam anxiety. That has gone away, thank god...but now I have reached a point where I just don´t care anymore.
I mean, I will finish med school and I still wanna be a doctor, but I just need a damn break!!!!

4.) Back to clothes: I recently bought the most revealing bikini I ever owned. It´s RED, the top is shaped like a push up bra with a bow between the cups. And now there´s the bottoms....they are almost as narry as a thong in the back. Not like a g-string, but still. My ass will be pretty much exposed. I was unsure at first, but then again I thought "if I can`t wear this now, when will I ever wear it...certainly not when I´m 60". So what the hell, right? I have a damn fine ass, it needs to see the daylight more often LMAO

Of course my fiancé is very unhappy about this purchase, he´d prefer for me not to wear it in public...which I understand, but I like to show what I got. It´s not like guys can have a piece of me, right?

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I hope nobody fell asleep. My life really IS boring without my fiancé. And I won´t even start talking about me being sexually frustrated like always...it´s pathetic.

Andi

It just turned out I won´t see my fiancé Shawn for christmas. His grandfather (who is one of the most important people in his life) is very sick, he was diagnosed with end stage lung cancer, and also has an abdominal aneurysma and suffers from emphysema.
Shawn is gonna use up all his free days from work to drive down to Texas over christmas and see his grandpa before he passes away, all of his family is going too.

I know hard it is for him, and I want to be more supportive, but I was really looking forward to seeing him. I was supposed to fly to San Diego in summer, but we had some relationship issues, so I couldn´t go.
So I was hoping for x-mas, and that won´t work out.

So my next chance will be Febuary (we´re out of school for the entire month), and then there´s my trip to L.A. where Shawn will hopefully be able to come see me for a day.

*sigh*, our relationship is hard, the distance gets to both of us. We´ve just had bad luck with our plans for too long.

Andi

It was so much fun! The photographer was totally unconventional, I was not allowed to pose at all lol. He constantly talked to me and snapped the pics through the convo so I didn´t really know when a pic was taken. Therefore I was totally relaxed throughout the shoot and the pics turned out really natural looking. Very in touch with nature
(sorry about the huge pics, I was too lazy to resize them.)
Btw these are completely unphotoshopped (as if you couldn´t tell anyway lol), I´ll get the photoshopped ones in a few days I think.












and one to make you guys laugh. I look like a doey eyed little monkey!

Andi

It won´t be explicit or anything, no worries.

Last time my fiancé Shawn and I made love was January 7th (that day I had to go back to Austria). At first I was doing ok, then I had some personal issues for a while (which kept me busy). Then Shawn had personal issues so I had other stuff to worry about rather than feeling sorry for feeling "re-virginized" again.

But now everything is in order again and I have so much sexual energy that can´t be released. It´s so bad that I am past doing the obvious to release that tension. I am lightyears beyond the point where that works.
I have sexual dreams almost every night and I send Shawn naughty e-mails on his iphone during the day when he´s at work, telling him how bad I wanna XXX right now.
Poor guy, he gets so abused lol

Ahh I am so frustrated I could punch a wall. Well in 2 weeks a friend and I will start 2 gym classes-fat burning and cardio. Maybe that will control my excess of physical energy.

And what´s also bad...the hornier I get, the more I talk to people about sex. My friends, my brother´s friends etc. I innocently flirt with guys just to at least feel desired for a while (but I would never go further than that, it´s just for fun).
This is just not normal for me cause I´m in a relationship with the "sexiest man alive" (IMO)

Ok, end of rant. As usual I need a sheep to return back to innocence

Andi

Sometimes there are days where everything looks wrong. Today is such a day, and I feel very unattractive. Especially since I´ve been sitting at home for days, but hopefully I´ll go out tomorrow and get pretty for the club.
So, onto my big fat RANT:

The skin on my body is so dry (I tend to slack on the body lotion application when the weather gets colder, which kinda contraproductive actually)

My face is pale again (damn those short Austrian summers)

My hair is all limp and shapeless (no explanation for that really since I got a cut like 2 weeks ago)

I still have that damn cold sore on my bottom lip

Post acne marks are very persistent lately. I broke out badly after my face had just totally cleared up. Just my luck!

My eyebrows looked so messy in today´s FOTD, ugh I want perfect brows!!!! NOW lol

So what´s a girl to do? I guess I´ll try to fix what I can fix since I`m staying home tonight anyway.
I´ll take a shower and put some lotion on, put my Mary Kay microdermabrasion cream on my face and will scrub my face like there´s no tomorrow.

Then I`ll pluck my eyebrows and try to get them in a better shape, maybe experiment a little more with my Benefit Browzings or something.
And then I´ll have to file my nails and put some cuticle cream on.

...hm..and I think I´ll have to shave my legs as well. It´s not like anybody is gonna see my legs (especially not my fiancé *cries*) but I feel incredibly gross with hairy legs (although those hairs are blonde)

Andi