Being lonely and without friends kinda sucks. But at the same time, sometimes I think it is for the best that I really dont have any friends. I have a few people that I can in some light regard as being a friend, but (fill in the blank)

Being singled out sucks and hurts as well. What hurts even more is when other people point it out to you. Its like getting shot, its painful. I had a buddy point something out to me, actually 3 people and once I saw it again, its like yeah youre right, but I cant be whiny about it, but being singled and left out does hurt.

Being two-faced sucks too. Especially when someone is verbally dogging my ass out, and it all gets back to me. Its a common known fact that women in general hold secrets and gossip like they hold their shit. Not long and not well. I would much rather prefer that the people that dont like me, just dont even attempt to be cordial to me. Sometimes cold war is better.

But at the same time, cold war sucks too, knowing that someone hates you and they totally dont acknowledge you, the bad vibes, it all just sucks. Love is so much better than war. I dont like holding grudges and burning bridges, But I am a tit for tat kinda person, I follow suit.

Useless, worthless, regarded as nothing more than a bitch 24/7, yeah I tend to call myself one but damn, just damn, ignored, disregarded, barely respected, ran over, left out, isolated, lonely, depressed, sad, all the words that relate to me and here.

I thank God for my husband and my kids, without them I would really have nothing. ...... I dont even know what else to say, I think I just need to go to sleep

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I was going to make thread about it, but figured some might think its stupid so i put my thoughts here. I have been a member of makeuptalk for a year now, and I have seen people come and go. This is just a list of people that used to be around that aren't anymore.

SierraWren
Nehcterg
Momo
Mina
Natalierb
Claire20a
Feverdream
tadzio79
Nox (not around as much)

I know that there are more!! Feel free to add!!!! I will as I remember peeps!!!! Just having random thoughts tonight, lol

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It is I the "harsh" one, lmao..anyway, my tip of the day is "when all else fails...asshole is the way."

Backstory- My husband and I went to Walmart to buy a game for an X-box 360. Well he asked the lady for it, she didnt want to put it in his hand (haha thievery I guess?)And rung it up. Total came up to 110 bucks for 2 darn games...So anyway..we get home...he opens it...and there is no game in there...just a burned bootleg cd. Oncce I looked at the cover..it was shrunk from someone using a blowdryer to reattach the shrink wrap....so I called good ole Walmart, to let a manager know and she said "You should have opened it in the store......once you leave out of the door it is not our problem" BAH!!!!!!!!!!!!

So my tip of the day- You buy anything from walmart-cd's dvd's games, even if they are shrink wrapped... open them in the store and check before you go. Dont lose 50 bucks like he did!!

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So, for the sake of drama I will not say specifically who, but I listened to a 911 tape tonight that broke my heart. The lack of awareness. All I am going to say is that it is imperative that EVERY person learn CPR so that someone in trouble may have a chance. I heard people waste 5 minuted talking amongst each other while the 911 operator called the lasy over and over again. He kept asking did anyone know how and they would not answer him. 5 minutes into the phone call, she finally decided to follow directions. Critical time lost. Please people, CPR is one of the best things that you can possibly learn.

I know that most of muters are now attracted to more trash than treasure, so even if you don't respond to my blog, please read it and learn something that can save someone's life.

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I wanted to post this because awareness of HIV/AIDS is very important for all to know. If you are having sex PLEASE wrap it up. Wear a condom, protect yourself and get routine testing.

Personally, when I did my clinicals, I did it in a hospice care place where I have seen first hand patients, young people, old people, middle aged people in their final stages of AIDS and it is the saddest thing in the world to watch.

In addition, African American women account for most of the new HIV infected cases. Meaning, my sistas, protect yourselves. Everyone needs to, but we are on the front lines of this war, and we are losing the battle.

There are many resources in EVERYONE's area to be tested and protected. I love everyone on here, each and everyone of you (for reals). I want everyone to be aware and take care of themselves.

HIV and AIDS does not have a face, the next person that you sleep with that you ASSUME is healthy, could have it. I will say it over and over again, protect yourself. Live your life to the fullest. Get tested. It is better to know than to not know. It can be treated and you can live a full life. I love yall, be safe.

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