LittleMissLilo

So its really hard for me to cope with what I'm about to write, just because I haven't really had the guts to tell anyone and I mean not even my family. I've been trying to realize it, accept it, and come to the conclusion that this is how its going to be.

Its probably silly for others to read this and say omg why is she seriously taking it overboard, but what I had before for it to totally be gone, I just can't accept it.

I had the best girlfriends in highschool, honestly....

Its so weird, two months ago I was devastated to lose the best girls I had in my life. It was such an emotional ordeal for me and I felt so confused as to what I did and if I was really a good friend or not. As the days went on, I realized it wasn't me at all. I did everything a friend does. I was there for them, cried with them, drove them when they needed it, did favors for them, crashed at their house when no one was there for them, ditched my boyfriend when I had too to stay with them, and I...

So I got this gift certificate from Mac the other day because of some court case they had. They shipped out $15 gift certificates to people who were in their system and I was in desperate need to get rid of it before it expired. Naturally, my boyfriend took me to the MAC pro Store in San Francisco. I am absolutely in love with the little town. Its gorgeous! The customer service is so nice and I love how it was so empty in the store. I can actually walk around and breathe in my own air without someone...

I've had the hardest end of 2007 and sometimes I feel like my 2008 is getting harder as the day goes by. I lost four best friends in 2007 at the end of the New Year. They kind of just dismissed me and left me hanging like that. I never understood it but it leaves me kind of hurt to this day. I try to reassure myself that friends arent everything and that I have myself and family, but sometimes in the end I kinda need it? Its kinda sad to be honest that I'm even writing about this, but I need to...