Why my night going os horribly?

Someone apparently is running around with both a credit card number and debit card number of mine, I received calls about both from the fraud detection depmnts within mere minutes of each other, and I'm thinking... when the hell did I let go of my wallet???

I feel so out of it and not with my head. I think I'm getting sick, AGAIN. I have had a total of 8 hours of sleep maximum since Friday of last week. Brain si totaslly shutting dfown And I'm supposed to be going full steam again tomorrow, and getting up at 5 am on Thursday to start cooking our Thanksgiving meal. .:Groan:. And Black Friday is another double full steam day for me, gotta make that money, gotta make those sales.

Hubby was out, so I made dinner to myself, put it in to a favorite bowl of mine, stuck a fork in. And did I sit down to enjoy my meal? Noooo! I to turn around, open the sink cabinet, and throw my dinner in the trash. Bowl, food, fork, gone. I think it took me a full five seconds to realize what I had done. And then I just walked away. I believe it's still there... shiiiit I gotta get it out.

Carrot was tugging at the pie crust I made so I put it in the oven to store it out of his reach. I was making lemon custard filling, needed to preheat oven. Turned it on. 35 minutes later my home is smokey and smell like ashes. It took me few minutes later to realize what I had done. The pie crust container, with it's plastic dome cover and the plastic shopping bag were completely vaporized. Only thing left aluminum lining, pie crust charred black.

I run to grocery store at 1030pm to buy another one. I dont have my wallet to pay for it. I took it out because of credit card situation talking on the phone with agents. Forgot to put it back. Clerk gives me some coins to pay for my pie crust.

I go home, try to make merinuge. Stupid eggs weont rise. I'm frustrated and upset banging counter tearing my finger nail alomost off. Finger is very wounded and painful/.

I dump pathetyic egg soup on pie, open kitchen window and threw it all out. Every of it. On the griund.

I sit and cry on dining table because my entire nights wasted away with no prosgress, not anything to show for it.

Police knock on my door anf tell me to clean my mess. So I cleaned m,ess with a hose, so embarrsased but /I acted stupidlly, so its good paybock times.

I am si tiredf, I donmt care anymore. i just dont care about anything I donr give a "f" about tyops, im very sirry about thit I m just so sad, and tired. Gotta go to bed. Nedd 2 hours to sleep then wake up again befpre sunruiser. Im soooooo exhassuted brain doesnt work cant di math cant smil;e im so tired goodnight

Nox

Yes. In my mind MuT has declined from what it was when I first joined. I'm sure I'm not the only one who has noticed that.

But then there are other things that members do that go totally unnoticed. Yesterday, I just completed a gang of M/U reviews. That's something right there that doesn't get celebrated enough. Most of the time these days, I check the reviews before I even go out to buy makeup anymore. With all the makeup people talk about using, I think everyone should have at least five m/u reviews under their belt.

And there is nothing wrong with having other non-m/u sections. Some of the internet's most active boards have forums/sections that are even bigger than said subject of interest... MuT is no different. People come here to spend their free time, it's not another job. It's not that serious folks. They will either find what they're looking for here, or they won't. Simple as that. But it's also good to at least lurk in the Makeup section. I do that now all the time, even though I may not post much. You'll be more apt to be tempted by an interesting topic if you hang out there more often.

How many of the Millenium Status MuTers have even nominated people for MOTM yet? We've been here long enough to know who's doing what. So let's recognize folks! That's something that needs to step up a bit. I know I'm slacking in that department come to think of it, but a while back, I was putting up people all the time.

D2Bs, some folks already know what I think about that, so I'm not about to go that direction.

FOTDs are fun to look at, they're fun to do. Matter of fact, I'm working behind the scenes to get something cooked up in less than a week... y'all better get ready for that! I predict that it will have been the highest participated FOTD MuT has ever had, so brace yourselves... I hope MuTs servers can handle all that hotness!

Now for getting down and keeping sh!t real...

I've been catching wind of drama unfolding and circulating with certain individuals:

Stop that f*ckery right now.

It ain't all about you. It's alright to have opinions. You can share 'em with another person to de-stress if it makes you feel better, and then carry on with your day. But there is more to life than being a badd@ss bitch. And it's not like y'all don't know when become inflamatory... yes you do know when you're inviting the heat. So when you get it right back, just pinch your nose and swallow it, you're tasting your own brew. It takes at least two people to fan the flames of drama, which means if you're in it you either:

A) Sparked the mess in the first place
B) Took the bait and ran with it

Okay, Noxy is done. Y'all can do whatever, just don't mess up the nice atmosphere for next weekend's FOTD.

Thank you.

Nox

This weekend, I learned that I miscarried. I am not really letting myself get too down about it (whatever that means) but I can't stop myself from feeling very sad today.

I am a bit ashamed that I told a close few people at work about this early on. They were the ones who pushed me to see a doctor when I told them about my "over-smelling" problem a while ago, so they knew what was up even before I did. They are always asking me, how I'm feeling, so this morning when I said "I'm fine" I think my face gave it away that I wasn't fine, and so they thought I was dealing with morning sickness and asked all these personal questions. I didn't want to lie, but I also didn't want to be rude and say "None of your business."

I told them the truth. And then one of them said "Oh that happened to me once. You're young, don't worry, you've got lots of time for babies yet. Besides, you didn't even plan for this one."

Yes, they are right. The pregnancy was not planned, but that does not make it worth less to me. That life still counts, as brief as it was. If I was an unwed, under-educated teenager, then yes, the pregnancy would have brought on a sense of impending panic. But I am not in such a position, and hubby and I would have loved and reared any child that came into our lives regardless of whether if she/he/they were planned or unplanned.

Well, I will be sad for only a short while longer, and then I have to move on. I guess it makes more sense to focus on people who are already on this planet living, than on those who are not going to be born. It just wasn't meant to be.

Nox

Have you ever had a fart in your loins so bad, that you thought you would blow a hole in your chair if you had to hold it one second longer?

This question I posed earlier in the week has led to a very important discovery. With the assistance of my husband, I have in fact acquired a nine-month hosting gig to a very clever unexpected "guest".

I'm gonna watch my little waist go "bye-bye", LOL. But it's for a good cause!
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Thanks to everyone that left well-wishes both on my Profile Comments and in the "Fart Thread". I appreciated all of them.

Nox