as of the last 3 weeks, I am an EXERCISER!

ok, maybe nothing crazy like a marathon, but I've been jogging. And, I love it. Even in the rain. I've never liked running before, but it makes me feel really free. It's like an escape.

I have started out pretty small, maybe 10-15 minutes, every sunday morning, but it's my intention to master this. I can do it. I can learn to jog for longer and harder.

When I did bootcamp, out of like, maybe 100 people, I came last when we had a race. I came behind the woman with back problems, behind the massively obese woman. I have really small lungs which makes it difficult to breathe, but I am determined not to let that stop me. I really want to learn how to do this!

I just had to share my excitement. I hope I can continue and get better. So far I feel like i'm getting a lot out of it.

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today I am resigned to resigning from my job!

I'm really nervous. I know my friend J, who said to stay calm, and not get emotional because it's just a job etc, is totally right, but I'm scared she's going to get angry.

Like who cares, right? i never have to see her again! but I'm still really stressed and nervous!

I did close last night and this morning, she did open (6am start) and she couldn't find the key to open the safe, so she called and then smsed. It was kind of like a nightmare, like in my sleep I'd been semi thinking about it, and worrying what to do, and then BAM, i wake up and it's her! it was horrible!

Big, deep breaths. I'm a casual, I can quit without notice, I can DO this. It's just such a big change because I don't have a new job lined up! EEK! unemployment!

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I have a job interview tomorrow! it's only one day a week, saturday, but it's in my area (antiques) so it might be good for experience. And, if they pay ok, it will mean about an extra $100 a week for me, which is better than a poke in the eye with a burnt stick!

it also leaves me free to do work on the weekdays and/or continue to work weekdays at my current job until I find something better.

I hope I do ok at the interview, I wouldn't be surprised if I made a complete fool of myself. But I'm going to think positive!

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when did it get to be 3am? I got carried away organising this week's fashion face off and writing up a new resume/applying for jobs.

At work today, our boss wanted us to hand out leaflets for our christmas gift pack, and WEAR IT ALL SHIFT. Right?

well.. we have had the pamphlets up all month. They're stapled to our free magazine as well. So, First off, if people wanted to buy them, they WOULD. And having it shoved down my throat would not make me want to buy something any more than before. Secondly, people kept asking if I was leaving to go home since I was wearing a bag, I felt stupid and awkward, it took up room at reception and it surely must be a small OH&S issue in a busy reception area?

she really pushed this idea and it kind of made me angry - firstly, I think products should sell themselves, and secondly, I don't get paid nearly enough to be a cheap common hawker of goods! I felt really uncomfortable with the whole thing, which really fueled my attempts at job searching tonight.

I just wanna do my job without this corporate junk. She asked me what my retail goals were tonight too. Like look, let's get this straight. I work part time to make a bit of money until I get a REAL job after uni. I'm reliable, I wont pull sickies at the last minute. I'm fairly cheap. I'm loyal, I do my job well. But when it comes down to the wire, I don't care at all about this job enough to actually answer that question seriously. So I bullshitted. It's like, is that what they want? me to make some random stuff up? what a pointless waste of time!

anyway, thats my rant wish me good luck in the jobsearch! i figure most people aren't either hiring at this time OR looking so maybe I'll manage to apply for a few other people havent noticed. i applied for a few tonight so it's a start

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WOOOOHOOO! I thought results were out on the 17th of this month but in actual fact they came out today. I did 3 subjects this semester (which doesn't sound like a lot, but the amount they were worth was quite a lot so I did less)

annnnnddd...

I didn't fail!! Omg you have no idea how shocked I am. Seriously, based on the answers I gave in the last essay, I was not expecting to pass. I honestly only answered 30% of the questions in one exam, and I don't think they were even close to the right answers.

I got a CREDIT in that subject I thought I'd fail, and a DISTINCTION in the subject I really enjoyed! NO WAY!!!!

there is one subject that came up saying 'incomplete' which is not a mark, and doesnt suggest that I've done something wrong, so I'm guessing the teacher has sent us all an email but I can't get into my student account. I'll have to find out tomorrow if it's ok!

but seriously, I cant even begin to explain how relieved I am, I really havent felt so definate I'd failed something since first or second year!

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