Tomorrow is my birthday!! I'm excited because I'm going to be having a "fun party."

I was having a fabulous day today until I recieved my divorce papers.....Happy early birthday to me! I'm excited, nervous, scared, anxious to finally be able to totally move on from this hell. 3 years of this and I couldn't succeed. Maybe I'm not meant to be married....(sigh), I'm just worried that if I ever get married again I'll fail at it too.

I'm trying so hard to keep myself from going into a depression but it's so hard. I can't keep lying to everyone much longer. I'm just dissapointed in myself for not being able to work it out.

Here's to me becoming a 23 year old divorced woman....

sali

Yay! I can finally breathe now that I have finished all of my finals for the semester and I passed all 6 of my classes! I can't wait until I finally graduate with my BSN. This semester was alot harder than I expected but I learned that I can write a whole research paper on the day it's due and still get an A on it. (I work well under pressure and under the influence of tequila)

sali

I have only been married for 2 years and if they are a sign of how things will be later then why do I stay? Now a days it feels like I live with an annoying roommate instead of a husband. If I ever say anything he tells me I'm childish and then gets mad when I won't talk to him. We argue ALL the time. He gets mad at me and takes it out on the dogs which is a big NO,NO. They have nothing to do with any of this. If we have kids will he do the same? He yells at me without reason and then tries to say it's because he is still in military mode (he is a marine.) That is no excuse. I told him that a person can only take so much of that and that I was on the end of my rope. UGHhh I feel like I'm the only one trying in this marriage and now I don't feel like it's salvagable or worth it.

sali