tuna_fish

I was coming home from Beaverton and heading to work when I stopped for a car in front of me who was turning left. The car directly behind me was pushed by the car directly behind him and rammed into me. My tail lights are falling off and my trunk won’t close and the drivers side seat is all screwed up. My dad said it may be totalled....we didn’t pay too much for the car, but the Blue Book price is more than we paid...so. Anyway. I’m sure insurance will be fine, but I’m worried because no car means...

So he came over on Wednesday and we watched Blades of Glory. Can you believe he's never seen it? He loved it.

We still have plans on saturday, either the rose garden or OMSI (weather pending), dinner, and a walk on the waterfront. We might do something tonight, depending on how busy we both are.

I'm still really, really happy....but I've noticed that he talks about himself a LOT. Maybe he's still trying to impress me? It's getting rather annoying. But...we've got plenty...

I had a date on Monday night and it was AWESOME. Alright, we planned to go out on Saturday night, but I didn't want to wait a whole week to go out, so we met for coffee on Monday night. Then we just went for a drive...it was amazing. We even made out a little. It feels like we're moving fast, and its scary, but...I don't know...someone tell me I'm not crazy! We still have a day planned on Saturday (the proper date) - OMSI, dinner, and the waterfront.

He's so adorable and so open and...

And, again, I will be without a boyfriend. Okay, I know that it's a silly holiday. It woul be fun to celebrate if you were in love, but I could do without it.

What bothers me is that everyone goes freaking insane around here for Valentine's Day. I don't know. I've had my moments of romance, but they were never relationships. (weird, I know).

So, I don't know. There's a boy in one of my classes that I'd like to get to know. But I don't know how, and, of course, I'm absolutely...

I feel like I'll never find that special relationship. There's a guy that I'm sometimes physical with. I've always known that its just that...nothing special. But he just TOLD me that. There's something damaging in that.


I don't know. I don't regret being with this guy. I just want what's next. I don't know if I'll ever get there...