*Sigh* I know everyone has gone through those times when you just feel like crap, or like lovely Celly likes to say "caca" (okay that cheered me up a bit lol) and for me, it was just that.
It doesn't help that it's Monday but it all started with Friday. (Get ready for a long drawn out story.) I told my husband the night before that I needed gas and he always fills up the tank for me. Well, I wake up in the morning to find that the gas light is on! Man I was pissed but I was running late and didnt have time to stop by the pumps. I'm in such a hurry that after I drop off my son with his babysitter, I go straight to my job without going to put gas and just decide I'll do it at my lunch hour.
I get paid every other Friday and last week was my payday. As I'm walking up to my job, my sister in law calls me to let me tell me that my husband has a judgement call at the magistrates's court at noon for a debt collector and that I need to call some number. Apparently, my husband maxed out a credit card while we dating and just left the debt there. He didn't ever pay it back and the reason they called my sister in law's cellphone is because my husband has the same name as my father in law and she thought it was for her dad. I call the number to find out that we have to pay the total amount within 30 days or they'd add another 1500 to the total. I go ahead and make payment arrangements but basically I'm screwed for the month. The total amount is what I get paid in a month! I've got ten other things I've gotta pay monthly and that doesn't include food and gas
I call my husband really pissed as I always have to deal with the financial crap and we end up (obviously) arguing and that starts my day at work. The whole day I'm stressing out on how the hell I'm going to pay my rent, insurance, phones, babysitting and so on and so on. I go on my lunch hours to go pay my bills and yet once again I forget to put gas
. I was running late going back to lunch as I spent 30 minutes in line at my bank; Friday was also the third and on the third , tons of people get social security and disability checks so they had all three lanes open, 5 cars per lane and one person working all three lanes! Man that did not help.
Since I was already late
and hadn't eaten yet, I went to Micky Dees which is right next to my job. I'm allowed to eat at my desk and I was starving. As soon as I come back, I had customer after customer after customer. I got my food at 3:30 and didn't even get to eat til 5:30 and cold french fries taste nasty.
I got off work late and I live about 15 minutes from my job so I figured I'd put gas at the ramp off from where I live since they always have gas and no place I was passing did. Well wha'dya know, my car dies on my on the interstate. My check light engine cuts on, gas light is still on and so does my brake light. No gas, no ride. I felt like I just wanted to cry
I had to call my husband and wait 30 minutes as huge 18 wheelers and cars passed right beside me going 75 mph. I hate that feeling as the car sways to the side when they pass. I felt like they were about to hit me.
When I finally got home, my husband had also had a bad day. My brother works with him at a body shop and my brother is a
loser. He can't keep a job for nothing and has no goals in life. Lately he's been effing up real bad at work and makes my husband, who got him the job, look bad. The problem is that my dad has been out of a job since May. My sister, her son, and my two brothers live at home and two of them just got their jobs back after two months of no work. My mom is the only one working and she works from 7 in the afternoon to 7 in the morning 6 to 7 days a week to try to make up for what she can since my dad can't work.
On Saturday night, I spent my day at my dad's house and he discussed with me that he put me as the contact to make decisions on his behalf for all his medical and attorney purposes. My mom is not listed on there because my dad fears that if something does happen to him, she won't be willing to let go. My dad is not one to live life in a vegetative state. He can hardly stay at home right now. I'm a daddy's girl but I'm not spoiled by no means. I'm the only one who can talk to my dad and he confides in me the most. Right now he's on medication for his diabetes, high blood pressure, depression and has to take insulin on a daily bases. I'm really worried about him since the doctor told him he's at a high risk for a heart attack and with me and my dad, being so close, I couldn't imagine my life without him anytime soon. Well, that night, him and my brother got into it and when my dad gets mad, he gets really ticked. He started to cuss out my brother and me and my mom had to get in front of him to keep him calm.
What really bothered me was that my brother has no real grasp of the situation with my dad. He's immature, inconsiderate, selfish, a liar and doesn't help for anything. As soon as he gets paid, his check in gone in the same day. My parents don't need this kind of bull but don't want to kick him out. I say good riddance. He needs a good a**whuppin anyways.
With all this stress going on, I decided to go on a mini haul today on my lunch hour. I went to Kohl's to check out Flirt and then to TJ Maxx but nothing really caught my eye. Make up always cheers me up and now, it just didn't even appeal to me. Lately my skin has been breaking out and I've got blemishes on my cheeks. I hate this because I've always had a clean face. What fun is makeup when you can't conceal that crap. To top it off, I just feel like my self esteem is shotty as well, nothing fits, I don't want to buy anything because I'm trying to lose weight and everything I have right now is so drab. I feel so down in the dumps with everything that's going on. I'm stressing out bad and feel so alone in all this mess.
(Damn this post is long! Sorry to bore you guys but I had to get it out)
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Just One of Those Days
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I'm sorry to hear that, that was one hell of a day for you! I hope things start looking up for you! *hugs*
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