[stellargirl9]

Originally Posted by Ricci

Loving emails in my opinion is just a man "suking up to you " because of what happend ,doesnt meean he will change

Ill answer your question like this , If I were you I would have dumped his butt right away.. thats not momentary lapse of judgment its is called a "cheating heart" Men know women like the word love and say it lots when caught with another women email or in person

You didn't answer are u both long distanced?

No we arent long distance, we just dont live together yet BUT planned on marrying in a few months- which makes this even worse.

[Ricci]

Really so why the video? that sounds a bit weird He should be saying it in person

Originally Posted by stellargirl9

No we arent long distance, we just dont live together yet BUT planned on marrying in a few months- which makes this even worse.

[stellargirl9]

Originally Posted by Ricci

Really so why the video? that sounds a bit weird He should be saying it in person

the video is cause I wont see him. I have spent the whole day crying my eyes out and Im scared to see him until I am more certain of my feelings. I am scared I will say something stupid to him or just cry like a baby.

also videos are sort of our thing. Even though we see each other day to day we usually make each other videos weekly, cause for me I like to save them on my blackberry to always have him with me sort of thing. Its silly but sweet.

at least it was until now. getting a video at some point tonight or in the morning with him telling me how he feels after all this is certain to make me manic.

[Ricci]

Ok I understand now .. crying is ok to do you know..
I think I gave u all the advice i have right now
goodluck

Originally Posted by stellargirl9

the video is cause I wont see him. I have spent the whole day crying my eyes out and Im scared to see him until I am more certain of my feelings. I am scared I will say something stupid to him or just cry like a baby.

also videos are sort of our thing. Even though we see each other day to day we usually make each other videos weekly, cause for me I like to save them on my blackberry to always have him with me sort of thing. Its silly but sweet.

at least it was until now. getting a video at some point tonight or in the morning with him telling me how he feels after all this is certain to make me manic.

[stellargirl9]

thanks Ricci and everyone for your kindness and time. If anyone wants I can send you the video tomorrow to watch and see what you think about his words, facial expressions and sincerity.

Its not even 4pm here yet, I have no clue how to get through the day. I hate to keep whining here but I am really just losing it so bad.

Half of me wants to keep him and just forget this ever happened and the other half of me wants to run like hell.

[Ricci]

Sure show us!will be interesting good luck!

Originally Posted by stellargirl9

thanks Ricci and everyone for your kindness and time. If anyone wants I can send you the video tomorrow to watch and see what you think about his words, facial expressions and sincerity.

Its not even 4pm here yet, I have no clue how to get through the day. I hate to keep whining here but I am really just losing it so bad.

Half of me wants to keep him and just forget this ever happened and the other half of me wants to run like hell.

[Nick007]

I think you have every right to be jealous. It's valid. What could they have in common. She probably just graduated from highschool and he's already lived an adult life. He has no business messing with her. I think you have every right to be pissed, mad, sad and jealous. That was wrong what he did. Ya'll are in a committed relationship, he doesn't need to be making new female friends. Maybe it's better you found out now, 2 years is a short period of time. You could've already been married, with kids and found all this out. There is a reason that you found those emails at this point in your relationship. You have to believe that everything happens for a reason, and what you decide from here is up to you.

[Saje]

All I know is that if my bf messes up - he better be at my door irregardless of whether I want to see him or not - begging for my forgiveness - not telling me through some video that my jealous demons are the reason why we are apart right now.

But its clear you've made your decision on this. I hope it works out in your favor.

[stellargirl9]

He HAS tried to come by. I won't open the door.

I haven't made a decision, I am completely torn about what to do.

[Ashley]

I'm so sorry to hear that you are going through this! It is such a terrible situation. I understand that you don't know how you'll get over him, but I think that will come gradually. Like Saje pointed out, you only found this out accidentally. How do you know this will not happen in the future, or has already happened in the past? Although what he has done was not technically cheating, it seems to me that he is obviously interested in the girl, and is pursing something with her, even though you have clearly stated your worries. You've already confronted him about the email, and he assured you it was nothing, so he should not have asked her to the movies because he knew that just the email alone already made you feel uncomfortable.

I'm really sorry. I think you should really think this through carefully. :hugs:

[stellargirl9]

Thanks Ashley. He keeps trying to convince me that there is nothing to the situation but I think him sending that mail to me by mistake is a true wake up call that I needed. But I am so in love with him that I am torn about what to do.

[Ricci]

He wants u to control those demons so he can cheat

Originally Posted by stellargirl9

ok now don't get mad at me for being so weak, but I just mailed him a video telling him how I feel and want to trust his faithfulness. Please read his reply to me and tell me what you think, here it is:

I watched your video and it broke my heart and at the same time filled me with hope. I still cant believe how beautiful you are, inside and out.
Please try not to worry. i AM still your man. And I KNOW your sincere. I just want you to learn to control these demons you speak of because they want us doomed baby.
Fight them.

I love you, beautiful Tina. Its a fine feeling. I want you to try it.
Love yourself.
Then you can love me properly.
I'll be here

xxxx

truthfully its sounds all phoney
especially this "
I love you, beautiful Tina. Its a fine feeling. I want you to try it."

[stellargirl9]

I hope you aren't right.

[lmcnabbkv]

I'm with everyone else and say to leave him but, if you could truly forgive him and trust him again then so be it. But if there would ever be a doubt in your mind about him telling you the truth then cut your losses and find someone who won't do you dirty like this. You deserve so much better than some schmuck who obviously didn't think about your feelings one bit. Even if it was just an innocent email...or lapse of judgement if you wouldn't have foudn it and confronted him what could have happened. He was obviously pursuiong this futher. It will be hard but in the end, it's your life, no one but you can make this decision. Good luck!