I understand you pain. I'm in the same boat. I was 165 pounds and 5'3. I tried so many things before and nothing worked at all. A few months ago I just got fed up of crying all the time when I saw myself in the mirror. I would cry to when I would try to wear an outfit and then realized how awful I looked in it due to the extra weight. I finally took a easier approach. I started eliminating the few things I new where not helping me. Tiny steps have helped me shed some pounds and well not being so hard on myself. I started by drinking more water, eating more veggies and fruits and cutting out junk and soda. I would kill for a coke before
but now it's been roughly 5-6 months and I lost 25 pounds. I'm not thin yet but I'm so happy I've lost something. Everyday I look a myself and just tell myself it will get better and not focus in the failures. You can do it!! Keep your spirits high and keep optimistic. I kept a small note on my fridge and in my phone. I wrote something to the extent of the feeling of sadness you get in front of the mirror is not worth temptation that will not benefit your body. I wanted to remind myself of that bad and sad feeling to work toward avoiding what caused them..... It still works to this day. Remember your a beautiful person regardless of appearance, you simply need to be happy with yourself. Whatever your goals are make sure they are in benefit of you and that they don't hurt you. Best of luck and keep strong.