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So I have this raging crush on a guy that started sometime at the end of last year, that I hoped would go away over the summer....but gahh when I saw him again this year he is still soooooo adorable. wahh. Now here is my complex - I don't actually want to hear that he likes me too. I mean, I do...but I don't want a boyfriend. Not from my own school anyway. I'm extremely shy and awkward...and I just couldn't deal with dating someone in my teeny tiny high school b/c everyone would know, and besides if we broke up.......
ANyhoo......for some background crushboy is unbelievably cute, tall, smart (he's studyig supernovas for science research. hot.) but he's also a skater, in a band, etc.....we haven't really talked but we have mutual friends.
Example of why I hate having this crush, though:
today in AP american (which is my last period), i was really tired and ready to basically fall asleep in class but then i remembered crushboy is in my class. today our desks were arranged in a circle and it just so happens he was sitting right across from me. i wasnt happy b/c i look like crap today and i was, liek i said, very sleepy
anyhoo...i was basically distracted all during class and crushboy plus my sleepiness = disaster when we had ot talk about a book we read. so....basically i was rambling aimlessly, and I'm pretty sure i turn red. embarassing because I rarely do.
and here's the good part - the class clapped after everyone talked, so they clapped for me. well i have this bad habit of clapping if everyone around me claps, even if i have no idea why. so...tired, confused me started to join in the clapping. for myself. then i was like OH SH*T wtf am i doing. very embarassing. very stupid. yeah....
and during th ewhole class, him and his friend kept laughing and i felt like they were laughing at me =P i mean...theyre nice guys (his friend is my semi-friend) but i was understandably selfconscious
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urgh. i know this is not a big deal, but htis is why i hate having crushes. they make me feel stupid, do stupid things, then obsess over nothing. funnnnnnnnn. crushboy why cant you go become ugly or something
Advice on unliking someone? *whines*
ANyhoo......for some background crushboy is unbelievably cute, tall, smart (he's studyig supernovas for science research. hot.) but he's also a skater, in a band, etc.....we haven't really talked but we have mutual friends.
Example of why I hate having this crush, though:
today in AP american (which is my last period), i was really tired and ready to basically fall asleep in class but then i remembered crushboy is in my class. today our desks were arranged in a circle and it just so happens he was sitting right across from me. i wasnt happy b/c i look like crap today and i was, liek i said, very sleepy
anyhoo...i was basically distracted all during class and crushboy plus my sleepiness = disaster when we had ot talk about a book we read. so....basically i was rambling aimlessly, and I'm pretty sure i turn red. embarassing because I rarely do.
and here's the good part - the class clapped after everyone talked, so they clapped for me. well i have this bad habit of clapping if everyone around me claps, even if i have no idea why. so...tired, confused me started to join in the clapping. for myself. then i was like OH SH*T wtf am i doing. very embarassing. very stupid. yeah....
and during th ewhole class, him and his friend kept laughing and i felt like they were laughing at me =P i mean...theyre nice guys (his friend is my semi-friend) but i was understandably selfconscious
/emoticons/[email protected] 2x" width="20" height="20" />urgh. i know this is not a big deal, but htis is why i hate having crushes. they make me feel stupid, do stupid things, then obsess over nothing. funnnnnnnnn. crushboy why cant you go become ugly or something
Advice on unliking someone? *whines*
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