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I feel like my makeup face is who I am, and how people see me as, this is my identity, but I know it's false. I know the eyeliner and mascara and brows and cover up are just making me seem more beautiful than I really am and I feel ugly from the time I take off my makeup at night (9 pm) until I put it back on in the morning at 7 am.
When I'm putting on my makeup in the morning, each step, from covering up blemishes to filling in brows to eyeliner to mascara makes me feel better and better until I'm completely done and I'm content again. And taking off my makeup at night is almost like taking a part of me with it. (crazy, I know)
I hate that I rely on makeup as much as I do, but I feel like an alien without makeup. And I feel SO good with makeup and I like how people perceive me as. I do have BDD so this is probably contributing to some problems.
Does anyone feel the same?
When I'm putting on my makeup in the morning, each step, from covering up blemishes to filling in brows to eyeliner to mascara makes me feel better and better until I'm completely done and I'm content again. And taking off my makeup at night is almost like taking a part of me with it. (crazy, I know)
I hate that I rely on makeup as much as I do, but I feel like an alien without makeup. And I feel SO good with makeup and I like how people perceive me as. I do have BDD so this is probably contributing to some problems.
Does anyone feel the same?