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Ricci /img/forum/go_quote.gif 10! cuz your so pretty!! But maybe its the fact u got off your meds.. you were fine before right?
It really can suck having a handsome boyffriend (I know)
keep your chin up keep us updated
hugs
hm well I had "ugly days" on my meds too, but they never really brought me down that much. And yeah having a handsome man can suck! I think he is sooo much better looking than me, he is perfect in every way...and I HATE it that he gets so much attention from females of all ages. hugs back
Originally Posted by
CellyCell /img/forum/go_quote.gif Ugh, sounds like me... my parents don't say nothing to me now but when I was younger my dad was always "you would look much prettier if you just lost weight or you did this or that" and I get compliments when I wear makeup, and wished I did without it. So I feel you... and my dad suffers from depression and my sister bi-polarism and I'm afraid I might all of a sudden get that. I too feel those bouts of depression during the winter time... "winter blues" perhaps? And what makes it worst is not going out at all and sluming around the house being lazy.
So you're okay with those feelings, ya know? I tell myself that too... it's ok to be caught up in my appearance. I guess you can say it's better to care than not to care. I just try not to get depressed about it, I always think of a better outcome like... "well, one day it'll happen and I'll be happy".
Since you said you're feeling better about other insecurities you were telling your therapist then go on with this insecurity. It's all in our heads. I do believe it had to do with what's being said about/towards us when we're younger that affects how we see ourselves when we're older. You have no idea how screwed I feel about a lot of things that has happen to me when I was younger...
Maybe there is a program there that helps with building self-confidence? I've wanted to join one but don't know where there is one... or maybe getting more ready for school instead of just going in without nothing on? I do that when I feel like shit.. I put a bit more effort in my makeup and such, kinda ruins the purpose of feeling better about yourself without makeup, lmao but like I like the attention. Maybe perfecting the natural look with makeup will help... plus, dude Anders baby - I swear you don't need much to bring out your features. I'd personally be staring at you often if I were there.
Haha about Freud. Psychology was my favorite class in College, still kept the textbook and all. Id versus Ego... great times.
I ramble too much. Prolly didn't make sense at all. Let us know how you're feeling now!
still feeling kinda "meh". On top of that Shawn is out of state for 3 weeks, he´s doing a training program for a specific job. If he passes the training and gets accepted I will have to post another long ass thread in the Advice forum..that´s all I´ll say for now. I´m secretly wishing he doesn´t get accepted for the job though.
Gosh you´re so right about how childhood can screw you up. I thank god that I wasn´t beaten or abused as a child! But still, what happen in my childhood screwed me up enough...I learned so much about this in therapy.
I think depression/low self esteem also runs in my family (only the females though). My mom has had some depressive episodes, and my grandma is a nervous wreck...on serveral meds and all, but years of living with my grandpa has killed her emotionally...hm..if I think about it it´s not in the genes then, it´s the men they´re with that bring them down so much!!!
...puhh, another great reason to leave this country and marry my perfect man that treats me like a princess.
And hey I´m the same about the compliments with makeup. Or maybe it´s cause when I wear makeup I´m much more confident that the confidence shows? I have never gotten any compliments when I wear no or very little makeup, but when I throw on everything there is I apparently look much better...makes me think, ya know?
anyways, enough with the rambling from my part. I need a little afternoon nap
