Man, I didn't know you were even over 23 until I went to your notepad!! Gosh, you look young..
Anyways, I'm 21 and I have a low self esteem. I haven't been diagnosed with depression, but I know I have it, most likely dysthmia.. I need to go to the doc for that.. <- ramble..
I look at celebs and get sad that I don't look like them as do many others, but I pretty much compare myself to others my age. It seems like others girls just look better than me and have a better fashion sense than me. Well even though I don't want to look all in fashion looking like "The Hills" or whatever, but it seem like whatever I wear, I look dumpy
. Sometimes when I wear certain things, I'm like.. "yea.. I look good today" and then go on, but most of the time I feel like bwah.
You know, something that made me mad recently was the whole Britney thing. She came out looking like a normal sized person, even though she was still pretty much hourglass shape, but still, she had a little jiggling of the belly and whatnot and people said she was fat and everything else. It didn't bother me than she performed bad and people talked about it, but when they started to call her fat and said she needed to lose more weight, it made me mad. Maybe this is part of my self esteem probs, but when people started calling her fat, they call everyone else who has a normal body shape...ones that look like britney and look good fat too. That just really makes me angry.
Again, I really thought you were 23.