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Hey kiddoes.
Today the bf and I split. Basically, I had been feeling ever since I got back from my trip (and before) that he was quite distant, and I felt whenever I called that I was bothering him when he was working (uni work), so on thursday I stopped calling. He messaged me a few times asking how I was, but never bothered to call even when I'd send messages saying 'I'll tell you all about it if you want to call when you get home'
it kind of exploded last night and we arranged to meet this morning for coffee.
Basically, he doesn't love me any more (and hasn't for a while) but didn't want to say so since he knew I was working so hard to keep us together. He hasn't had time because of uni to try and explain this to me before, and since he was so busy he thought it'd be ok to pretend like nothing was wrong and then get ME to do the breaking up.
I am incredibly busy myself at the moment with my last month as an undergraduate student, and so I have basically told myself that there is no point in grieving for a relationship that has been dead a long time. I still love him, but I cannot be with someone who does not return that love as completely and loyally as I have.
I have reminded myself that people break up, get together, marry, die or have babies every single day.
It is merely my turn to be heartbroken today. That being said I am determined not to lose faith in all men or be resentful or bitter. I am better off single than in a relationship that is so broken.
I didn't post this for sympathy or pity although I know that you guys will make me feel better. I simply felt the need to tell people that mean a lot to me about what is going on with me.
I'm glad I have you all
Today the bf and I split. Basically, I had been feeling ever since I got back from my trip (and before) that he was quite distant, and I felt whenever I called that I was bothering him when he was working (uni work), so on thursday I stopped calling. He messaged me a few times asking how I was, but never bothered to call even when I'd send messages saying 'I'll tell you all about it if you want to call when you get home'
it kind of exploded last night and we arranged to meet this morning for coffee.
Basically, he doesn't love me any more (and hasn't for a while) but didn't want to say so since he knew I was working so hard to keep us together. He hasn't had time because of uni to try and explain this to me before, and since he was so busy he thought it'd be ok to pretend like nothing was wrong and then get ME to do the breaking up.
I am incredibly busy myself at the moment with my last month as an undergraduate student, and so I have basically told myself that there is no point in grieving for a relationship that has been dead a long time. I still love him, but I cannot be with someone who does not return that love as completely and loyally as I have.
I have reminded myself that people break up, get together, marry, die or have babies every single day.
It is merely my turn to be heartbroken today. That being said I am determined not to lose faith in all men or be resentful or bitter. I am better off single than in a relationship that is so broken.
I didn't post this for sympathy or pity although I know that you guys will make me feel better. I simply felt the need to tell people that mean a lot to me about what is going on with me.
I'm glad I have you all