Oh man. I just need a minute and a hug.

[LilRayofSun]

Bear with me, I have had a horrendous couple of weeks and I am finally acknowledging how bad it is making me feel.

What do you do when you realize your attempts at being a strong person has backfired? That it has cast you in such a light with others you fear there will never be a fresh start?

I am not an evil mean person, in fact I am so sensitive I tend to put up that "imma b!tch' wall when I feel hurt.

The internet was meant to be a place to relax, unwind. Not a place to feel alienated and lonely.

I know I have made some really good friends, and for that I am thankful, but what do you do when people make that snap judgementt of you? How do you NOT feel hurt?

This is just a general feelibng of being let down. By myself.

Ahhhh. Does anyone know what I am talking about? I just feel so alone right now.

Kids are at school, Hubby is at work. I have tried and tried to get a job but I'll be darned if a 10yr lapse in employ doesn't hinder it. That and they want RECENT experiences=(

So hard to get out of the hole and stay out.

I know this is "just the net" not real life, but does that mean it should hurt less?

I just need a hug bad. And not a single soul to get one from=(

 

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