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Literally.
I spent the last 5 years of my life crying because I couldnt be with my boyfriend. At night time would be the time I was the saddest over it. I would often cry myself to sleep over it, I HATED sleeping alone..
Now that my boyfriend and I live near eachother and im over there almost every day, sleeping over quite often..we get that chance. The first week or so I slept there every day..and I LOVED waking up in the middle of the night seeing him next to me. It was very comforting and I have been looking forward to that for years. The past week or two though, he has said that I hog the bed/blankets..and he always goes on the couch now. Even when we went to his parents last weekend and they were out of town, he said it was too hot in his room and went in the basement to sleep. I was alone again
I know these are the real reasons but it makes me sad that he doesnt care about sleeping with me? On the internet (and yes I've realized on the internet it's way different than what really happens) we always talked about how we couldnt wait to sleep in the same bed. Now he could care less.
He knows it upsets me and last night he was going to take me home (he doesnt even want me there at all at night it seems) but I was sad so he said I could stay..I was sad about not sleeping with him in weeks..so I figured he would sleep with me right? No..he went on the couch (it's a pull out bed) which defeated the whole purpose of me staying anyway..I was really sad and cried myself to sleep.
I know it all seems so trivial but it just makes me sad..I am a sensitive person to a lot of things and I had my heart set on getting to sleep with the man i've loved for years instead of by myself. Every time I sleep alone now it reminds me of those feelings I felt before we could be together and I feel that same lonliness even though he is in the other room.
He knows how I feel, yet let me go to bed alone anyway..I guess I hog it THAT much. :/
How would you feel in this situation, am I the only one who gives a crap if they get to sleep with their s/o??
sorry so long!
I spent the last 5 years of my life crying because I couldnt be with my boyfriend. At night time would be the time I was the saddest over it. I would often cry myself to sleep over it, I HATED sleeping alone..
Now that my boyfriend and I live near eachother and im over there almost every day, sleeping over quite often..we get that chance. The first week or so I slept there every day..and I LOVED waking up in the middle of the night seeing him next to me. It was very comforting and I have been looking forward to that for years. The past week or two though, he has said that I hog the bed/blankets..and he always goes on the couch now. Even when we went to his parents last weekend and they were out of town, he said it was too hot in his room and went in the basement to sleep. I was alone again
He knows it upsets me and last night he was going to take me home (he doesnt even want me there at all at night it seems) but I was sad so he said I could stay..I was sad about not sleeping with him in weeks..so I figured he would sleep with me right? No..he went on the couch (it's a pull out bed) which defeated the whole purpose of me staying anyway..I was really sad and cried myself to sleep.
I know it all seems so trivial but it just makes me sad..I am a sensitive person to a lot of things and I had my heart set on getting to sleep with the man i've loved for years instead of by myself. Every time I sleep alone now it reminds me of those feelings I felt before we could be together and I feel that same lonliness even though he is in the other room.
He knows how I feel, yet let me go to bed alone anyway..I guess I hog it THAT much. :/
How would you feel in this situation, am I the only one who gives a crap if they get to sleep with their s/o??
sorry so long!