The London Drugs I went to was in South Surrey, in the new Morgan Crossing shopping center. Where the Steve Nash club is. Right across from the Walmart super center where the Wet n Wild is LMFAO I went from Bellis Fair mall in Bellingham > to Rite Aid in Blaine > to the Dollar store in Blaine, Washington, talked to the ladies there about the Walgreens in Ferndale, etc BOING > then to London Drugs in South Surrey before it closed > then to freaking Walmart before THAT closed, then home....and then spent 4 hours in Sephora yesterday!! I drove all the way to downtown Vancouver to Pacific Centre mall from White Rock to peruse their collection of foundations, eye shadows, silicone free primers, etc. I did a lot better than usual, though, I must say. I only spent $23, but still came home with a bag FULL of stuff. I mainly went down there to get more liquid foundation and primer samples as I am still hunting for THE ONE and loaded up on Tarte, Korres, MUF, etc while I was there. All FREE, however. I did BUY another set of Fresh Firebird and Supernova mascaras by the cashier for $11 which I LOVE (it was that or $50+ for 2 full sized), and hit their $6 bargain bins. Picked up a discontinued Sephora nearly-matte bronzer which is almost identical in tone to my Smashbox Halo in Medium but more pigmented - I LOVE Halo and use every time I do my makeup - plus a large-ish Sephora mineral foundation jar for only $6 - this stuff has spectacular ingredients in it & a great finish on the skin & was not gonna pass it up for that price - and then asked them to call all the Sephora's in the Lower Mainland to see if they had the same mineral foundation in Medium. Completely lost my mind! I bought one in Deep yesterday because that's all they had left, and as I reasoned, I can use it as a spectacular all-over glowing-without-shimmer bronzer AND a contour powder....reasoned....justified....bullsh*tted myself....they called around at my request & finally found an entire case-full of the stuff in Medium for me at one of their other stores in the area and asked them to hold some for me til tonight. The guy was so helpful that I am definitely going to call Sephora and tell them that he really is a good employee....he must have thought I was one loopy biatch, boy....look out for the crazy-white-woman-that's-been-trolling-the-aisles-for-half-the-day.....the MUA who helped me find some foundation matches said 'You're back!' after seeing me still wandering around for 3 1/2 hours. I told her 'I never left!' Her eyes damn near bugged out haha
Pretty pathetic! I left about 45 minutes later LOL and actually considered going to MAC afterwards! Oh my gaaaawwwddd.....
Have been playing again this morning with my new toys, swatching & blending, but the guilt of spending stupid amounts of money on MAKEUP and STUFF is really getting to me, quite honestly. My husband was shocked when I came home last night after that many hours in a cosmetics store with only $23 worth of products. He knew exactly where I was going and I *know* he assumed I was gonna come home with half the store. Quite honestly, I almost did....it took me 4 hours to talk myself in and out of so many things I had put in my basket. Had 5 or 6 eye shadow palettes in there, along with bottles and compacts of other expensive stuff, again rationalizing that it WAS a good deal for that many full-sized shadows. The bargain bins saved me, thank god! To be fair to him, he never complains about anything I do, ever, and I have spent a boat-load of cash on makeup, clothing and shoes in the past month and a half or so. A LOT. Hell, in the past YEAR and a half. In the 60 days alone, I have bought *at least* 65 mineral eye shadows and have more coming in the mail (95% were on sale), at least another 8 blushes of various types & price points, stupid amounts of bronzers - WTH? - MORE brushes - apparently 39 or so was not enough in my makeup-addled brain - 15 bottles of nail polish, countless eye shadow palettes of varying expense & size, plus eye shadow singles & refills, 2 mixing palettes, an empty shadow palette, etc. I can't believe it when I sit down and count how many products I have bought in such a short space of time. My husband doesn't even realize how much, and I have been trying not to think of it too much either. I justify it by buying most of it on sale, and yes, I DO get great deals. 40% 50% 75% off, buy-one-get-one, use coupons when possible, and collect points in every store possible for future freebies, but still buy *some* at full price. And I'm not buying on credit otherwise we'd be in bigger trouble. I only buy with the money we have, but this is still NOT ok. And I am STILL waiting for all my online orders to cross the border as the mail strike held everything up big time. That's at least another $300, just in online purchases in the past 3 weeks or so! He knows they are coming, but I even lied about those orders *too* and gave him some bs story of many of them being freebies for giving product feedback to the companies & some being product replacements (partially true). I *do* get freebies like that sometimes, but these ain't no freebies! But he buys it because he sees me testing the stuff & sometimes sees me typing out my reviews & sending them in. He also trusts me, which makes my bullsh*tting & lying even worse :-(
This truly has got to be my last HAUL for a good long while, and I am NOT joking. Will have to restrict myself to swaps. I have gotten completely out of control and I just don't feel it's fair to him. It's not fair to us *or* our relationship. The point at which I admitted I actually had an ISSUE is when I hid those bags in the trunk of the car a few weeks ago so he wouldn't see them, and then stashed the receipt in one of the zip pockets, not to mention the fact that I spent $100 on a spring/summer jacket and lied about the price to him. Justified *that one* in my mind because it was on sale. I honestly never thought I would do something like this to him - deliberately plan to lie to him & outright go out of my way to conceal the amount of money I am spending on anything, especially when he rarely spends anything on himself and is the least selfish person I have ever met in my life. Lying to him about anything is just plain WRONG....this is as low & disrespectful as I have ever been with him, and he REALLY does NOT deserve that, especially when he treats me like absolute gold. I really feel like a shit about this, so I have started explaining how much I have spent on what, showing him what I've brought home, etc. *That's* what somewhat slowed my spending in the last week. But I can't bring myself to bring those damn bags into our apartment as I don't want him to know I bought them! I still feel really guilty about it. Yet he STILL has no problem with me going to the IMATS in Vancouver this month! No problem, he says, when I mentioned it to him! WTH?? No, I am going to do my very best to NOT go, I've decided. I would rather take him out to dinner and buy HIM something, because he truly does deserve it, and more. I, on the other hand, deserve absolutely nothing at the moment, and would not blame him if he completely lost it and started ranting about how much BUYING I am doing, online and off. My pathetic confession of a shopaholic....which started with an eye shadow obsession, then everything else related to makeup, and has now moved on to bags, shoes, clothing, jewelry, etc. I really, seriously need to get my shit together....this is the kind of stuff that can destroy a relationship, and THAT I am NOT going to allow to happen....not out of my own selfishness. I'm gonna have to hand over my cards to him - mine are Visa & Mastercard debit cards - and just tell him I *know* I have a problem with this & need his help to put a stop to my self-centered addiction to buying 45 shades of every type of makeup on the shelves. I only get my cards back when we go grocery shopping together. There is no other choice for me because I simply cannot control myself at the moment.
Seriously, this feels very much like a drug addiction. It IS, in fact.....gotta try my best to NOT hit Sephora today. I've got a load of points I can redeem at Shoppers or Murale later this week to get something for free & calm my buying frenzy, but that's it. Will stay home and make the poor guy some of his favorite muffins...it's the least I can do to make it up to him for being such a lying, sneaking cow....and please pardon my 5 mile self-induced public guilt-trip
If I put it down in writing and read it back to myself, it helps me to realize how BAD this situation I've created actually is....I am a total cow and should be flogged for being such a pathalogical, overspending liar!
